no because the way that I saw this wedding video of my classmate and literally, it looked like they spent a crore on that! I mean, here I am trying to convince myself that spending on an extra topping for my instant noodles is a big deal. honestly, I ghosted my old friends, and now I'm literally crying over a screen, thinking how they probably have an entire wedding planner while I still struggle ...
it’s day 47 of pretending to be someone my family would finally be proud of. last week, i showed up at dinner with a job title that sounds impressive and a smile that hides the panic of my life feeling like a circus. my mom asked why i can’t be more like my cousin who just got a promotion and all i could think was how his smile felt like a dagger reminding me of all the things i’ve sacrificed for ...
literally, every time I laugh, I wonder if it’s my actual laugh or just the one people like to hear. honestly, it feels like I’m performing in my own life, waiting for the applause while secretly hoping someone will ask if I’m okay behind the curtain.
literally, every time I laugh, I wonder if it’s my actual laugh or just the one people like to hear. honestly, it feels like I’m performing in my own life, waiting for the applause while secretly hoping someone will ask if I’m okay behind the curtain.
last night, i caught myself looking up the cost of ramen because, like, who knew? it's literally the same as a fancy drink i used to order when i wanted to pretend life was okay. everyone sees my playlists and assumes i have it together, but honestly? i just googled how to stretch ten bucks until payday. #strugglinginparadise #moneytalks