day 47 of refreshing social media, and everyone's posting about their shiny new adventures. meanwhile, i'm over here contemplating if washing my hair is a luxury. luka berulava is out there breaking barriers and stealing hearts, while i sit frozen in my sweatpants. seriously, can i get one day of breakthrough too? the envy claws at me as my friends book vacations and upgrade their lives, while i'm...
no because the way that I saw this wedding video of my classmate and literally, it looked like they spent a crore on that! I mean, here I am trying to convince myself that spending on an extra topping for my instant noodles is a big deal. honestly, I ghosted my old friends, and now I'm literally crying over a screen, thinking how they probably have an entire wedding planner while I still struggle ...
it’s day 47 of pretending to be someone my family would finally be proud of. last week, i showed up at dinner with a job title that sounds impressive and a smile that hides the panic of my life feeling like a circus. my mom asked why i can’t be more like my cousin who just got a promotion and all i could think was how his smile felt like a dagger reminding me of all the things i’ve sacrificed for their approval. will they ever see me or am i destined to live in this shadow forever? #delulu #
it’s day 47 of pretending to be someone my family would finally be proud of. last week, i showed up at dinner with a job title that sounds impressive and a smile that hides the panic of my life feeling like a circus. my mom asked why i can’t be more like my cousin who just got a promotion and all i could think was how his smile felt like a dagger reminding me of all the things i’ve sacrificed for their approval. will they ever see me or am i destined to live in this shadow forever? #delulu #
literally, every time I laugh, I wonder if it’s my actual laugh or just the one people like to hear. honestly, it feels like I’m performing in my own life, waiting for the applause while secretly hoping someone will ask if I’m okay behind the curtain.