yaar, matlab samjho na, just opened my bank account and saw it sitting at 1500 bucks, rent due next week and thinking about how much i wish i could just buy that book to distract myself, लेकिन ये तो नहीं कर सकता. घर वाले समझते नहीं, bas keh rahe hain kuch kar le, lekin meri kuch nahi sunte.
sat on the couch tonight scrolling through old texts thinking about that one friend i had who would laugh at all the dumb stuff i say and now all i feel is like the silence is just echoing back at me, kinda wish i could just shoot them a random meme or something but it's like we both just faded away and now it feels too awkward to reach out.
so i went to a wedding and thought i was being all suave but tripped on my way to the dance floor and landed right in the cake. all the laughter and no way to escape so i just laughed with them and tried to eat some of it off my shirt like it was normal or something.
so i went to a wedding and thought i was being all suave but tripped on my way to the dance floor and landed right in the cake. all the laughter and no way to escape so i just laughed with them and tried to eat some of it off my shirt like it was normal or something.
so i just realized i might as well get a punch card for the nursing home because i visit so often, it feels like a weird part-time job with no benefits and zero overtime pay, but hey, at least i have my mom's awkward small talk on the schedule while my siblings act like she lives in another country.