sat in the er last night with my chest feeling tight and when they asked for an emergency contact i just stared at the ceiling, nobody came to mind, scrolled through my phone and found the same empty names, it felt heavy, so heavy, realizing i do not have a single person who knows me. like what have i been doing for five years in this city if it has come to this.
saw a guy in a long line at the bakery get the last chocolate croissant and i felt this weird wave of sadness wash over me like he just snagged my breakfast too. can’t remember the last time i treated myself to something small like that, kind of wish i had asked for the last one anyway.
got the couch out of storage cause the old one finally fell apart, but the damn thing has this weird musty smell and im just sitting here realizing i can’t afford a new one and every time i smell it i think about how i once thought i’d be able to buy a real nice couch that wouldn’t smell like regret.
got the couch out of storage cause the old one finally fell apart, but the damn thing has this weird musty smell and im just sitting here realizing i can’t afford a new one and every time i smell it i think about how i once thought i’d be able to buy a real nice couch that wouldn’t smell like regret.
i thought the landlord was going to boot me out when i was late with rent but he actually just said it was no problem, and honestly, i felt this weight lift off my chest like i could finally breathe again. after weeks of waiting for bad news, it turned into this weird relief and now i feel like i can take a step forward, who knew a conversation could feel so freeing.