i spent the afternoon cleaning the windows in my tiny apartment while my neighbor threw a baby shower for his wife, all i could think about was how their nursery must look perfect while mine still has empty shelves and the unwrapped car seat is just... still in my trunk, the weight of everything feels heavy.
so today my mom introduced me to the nurse as a "nice young stranger" and i thought it was funny until i got to the parking lot and literally just sat in my car crying because it hit me like a ton of bricks that she did not recognize me at all, like what even is my life right now.
was cleaning out my closet today and found my old guitar buried under all these clothes, like wow, i forgot how much i used to love just sitting on the floor strumming for hours, but now i just feel heavy thinking about how all my friends are off doing open mics and getting signed while im stuck in this tiny apartment surrounded by bills and the same four walls that seem to close in on me every day.
was cleaning out my closet today and found my old guitar buried under all these clothes, like wow, i forgot how much i used to love just sitting on the floor strumming for hours, but now i just feel heavy thinking about how all my friends are off doing open mics and getting signed while im stuck in this tiny apartment surrounded by bills and the same four walls that seem to close in on me every day.
yaar, matlab samjho na, मेरे दोस्तों की शादी हो रही है, और मैं अपने छोटे से अपार्टमेंट में बस एक पुराने सोफे पर बैठा हूं, ये सोचते हुए कि मैंने आज फिर से कुछ नहीं किया और ये सब जिंदगी में कभी कुछ बदलता नहीं, घर वाले समझते नहीं और मुझे तो बस हर एक दिन उसी पुराने प्लेन से उड़ना है।