so i went to the grocery store to get cereal and literally came home with only a random bag of flour and some toilet paper, like what am i even doing with my life honestly.
i spent the afternoon cleaning the windows in my tiny apartment while my neighbor threw a baby shower for his wife, all i could think about was how their nursery must look perfect while mine still has empty shelves and the unwrapped car seat is just... still in my trunk, the weight of everything feels heavy.
so today my mom introduced me to the nurse as a "nice young stranger" and i thought it was funny until i got to the parking lot and literally just sat in my car crying because it hit me like a ton of bricks that she did not recognize me at all, like what even is my life right now.
so today my mom introduced me to the nurse as a "nice young stranger" and i thought it was funny until i got to the parking lot and literally just sat in my car crying because it hit me like a ton of bricks that she did not recognize me at all, like what even is my life right now.
was cleaning out my closet today and found my old guitar buried under all these clothes, like wow, i forgot how much i used to love just sitting on the floor strumming for hours, but now i just feel heavy thinking about how all my friends are off doing open mics and getting signed while im stuck in this tiny apartment surrounded by bills and the same four walls that seem to close in on me every da...