ok but I just spent the last five years thinking “prioritize what makes you happy” while drowning in my own procrastination like it was some kind of lifestyle choice. I wake up every day wondering how I got this far and now I'm pretending to be a master planner when I just Googled "ekadashi kab hai" hoping some divine intervention will help me figure it all out. So yeah, guess my plan for February...
yooo, life is tough, hai na? i watch everyone posting about their big weddings and all i can think about is how my hobbies feel like dreams i can't afford to pursue. matlab, i want to explore art, create beautiful things, but with rent and bills looming over me, all i can do is scroll. trying to blend creativity into my mundane routine feels impossible. every paycheck disappears like it’s been ...
no because the way that I put on my favorite black dress for the third time this week, believing it might finally draw someone’s gaze, yet I sit alone at the edge of a coffee shop, imagining a standing ovation from an audience that only exists in my mind, while everyone else walks by as if I am just another piece of furniture—forgotten and easily overlooked.
no because the way that I put on my favorite black dress for the third time this week, believing it might finally draw someone’s gaze, yet I sit alone at the edge of a coffee shop, imagining a standing ovation from an audience that only exists in my mind, while everyone else walks by as if I am just another piece of furniture—forgotten and easily overlooked.
today i realized that even though i can literally recite every detail about my favorite video game, nobody actually knows the real me. i put so much effort into being the ultimate hype person for others, it’s like i’m performing instead of living. my coworkers act all supportive, but i can’t shake the feeling they’d be friends with anyone else in my role. just like that game, where my team was sta...