yooo, life is tough, hai na? i watch everyone posting about their big weddings and all i can think about is how my hobbies feel like dreams i can't afford to pursue. matlab, i want to explore art, create beautiful things, but with rent and bills looming over me, all i can do is scroll. trying to blend creativity into my mundane routine feels impossible. every paycheck disappears like it’s been ...
no because the way that I put on my favorite black dress for the third time this week, believing it might finally draw someone’s gaze, yet I sit alone at the edge of a coffee shop, imagining a standing ovation from an audience that only exists in my mind, while everyone else walks by as if I am just another piece of furniture—forgotten and easily overlooked.
today i realized that even though i can literally recite every detail about my favorite video game, nobody actually knows the real me. i put so much effort into being the ultimate hype person for others, it’s like i’m performing instead of living. my coworkers act all supportive, but i can’t shake the feeling they’d be friends with anyone else in my role. just like that game, where my team was stacked but still lost. now i’m here, wondering if anyone really cares about my invisible struggle. #MagicVsBucks #LonelyGames
today i realized that even though i can literally recite every detail about my favorite video game, nobody actually knows the real me. i put so much effort into being the ultimate hype person for others, it’s like i’m performing instead of living. my coworkers act all supportive, but i can’t shake the feeling they’d be friends with anyone else in my role. just like that game, where my team was stacked but still lost. now i’m here, wondering if anyone really cares about my invisible struggle. #MagicVsBucks #LonelyGames
last night, i heard the news about वंदे मातरम् becoming mandatory before events. felt weird because my family always puts me on blast at gatherings - "क्यों नहीं गाते हो?" like how do i explain that singing in public makes my throat dry and my hands sweat? and while everyone is practicing for the next family function, i am over here trying to figure out how to just be seen for who i am, not compar...