हर दिन उस आईटी ऑफिस में बैठा रहना पागल बना देता है, पर घर वाले समझते नहीं। बस इंजीनियरिंग की डिग्री के लिए इतनी मेहनत की और अब मैं ये नहीं कर सकता।
it is so strange to think about how i used to love to go to the library for hours, and now the thought of stepping inside makes my stomach twist like what even happened to that place where i felt so at home, now it just feels like another reminder of all the things i never quite managed to hold onto, even just wandering through aisles of books but never pulling anything off the shelf, like i lost ...
i keep feeling like i should be enjoying these dinners more but sitting there while everyone drinks is just so weird, like it just reminds me of what i left behind and i hate that feeling, sometimes it feels like they just dont see me at all... then i end up making excuses to leave and nobody really notices anyway.
i keep feeling like i should be enjoying these dinners more but sitting there while everyone drinks is just so weird, like it just reminds me of what i left behind and i hate that feeling, sometimes it feels like they just dont see me at all... then i end up making excuses to leave and nobody really notices anyway.
checked my account today and saw rent is due next week, but i still owe for the doctor and the prescriptions, cant even afford the heating bill, feels like i wont ever be able to catch up with everything piling up while i sit here, three weeks cooped up with nothing but the sounds from the neighbor's tv, trying not to spiral.