so my back's been on strike since that incident at work and somehow workers comp decided to pack up and leave just like my ability to pick up anything heavier than a feather — but hey, at least my hospital bills are really stacking up, so there's that silver lining, right?
हर दिन उस आईटी ऑफिस में बैठा रहना पागल बना देता है, पर घर वाले समझते नहीं। बस इंजीनियरिंग की डिग्री के लिए इतनी मेहनत की और अब मैं ये नहीं कर सकता।
it is so strange to think about how i used to love to go to the library for hours, and now the thought of stepping inside makes my stomach twist like what even happened to that place where i felt so at home, now it just feels like another reminder of all the things i never quite managed to hold onto, even just wandering through aisles of books but never pulling anything off the shelf, like i lost my own interest in stories too...
it is so strange to think about how i used to love to go to the library for hours, and now the thought of stepping inside makes my stomach twist like what even happened to that place where i felt so at home, now it just feels like another reminder of all the things i never quite managed to hold onto, even just wandering through aisles of books but never pulling anything off the shelf, like i lost my own interest in stories too...
i keep feeling like i should be enjoying these dinners more but sitting there while everyone drinks is just so weird, like it just reminds me of what i left behind and i hate that feeling, sometimes it feels like they just dont see me at all... then i end up making excuses to leave and nobody really notices anyway.