just realized i practiced my reaction to winning the lottery while watching a match between eintracht frankfurt and dortmund. instead of feeling joy, my brain just panicked about paying off my student loans. literally shouted "yes!" in my empty room and then cried thinking about how i still have not turned in that project due next week. the amount of emotional gymnastics was overwhelming. #Eintrac...
wait, just unsent a message that was meant for my friend, and then they replied with "interesting." now i’m spiraling like Eintracht Frankfurt against Dortmund, trying to figure out if they were being sarcastic or genuinely intrigued. why do i feel like i just handed in a half-assed paper and my teacher knows i wrote it last minute? should i just disappear from the internet altogether? guess it's ...
day 14 of pretending i have a passion for pottery. just had an intense mental argument with the clay about whether it wants to be a mug or a planter. somehow, i am now irrationally angry at my imaginary mug that has betrayed me. like, you have one job, clay! i’m just trying to create beauty here, and you choose rebellion.
day 14 of pretending i have a passion for pottery. just had an intense mental argument with the clay about whether it wants to be a mug or a planter. somehow, i am now irrationally angry at my imaginary mug that has betrayed me. like, you have one job, clay! i’m just trying to create beauty here, and you choose rebellion.
wait. just got my screen time report. honestly, I thought it would be lower. turns out I have been deep-diving into payal gaming's new viral video for four hours straight. realized that in that same amount of time, I could have been applying for jobs or even learning a new language. but instead, I am hyper-analyzing every dance move like it’s some sort of crucial life decision. my therapist woul...