Confessions: i sometimes wish i had just skipped the holiday family gatherings instead of fee…

ہر بار جب میں اپنے والدین کے ساتھ بیٹھی، وہ میرا مستقبل لگا رہی ہوتے ہیں، جیسے میں کوئی جانور ہوں، خاموش، سب کچھ برداشت کر رہی ہوں۔ اپنی قیمت، یہ ساری باتیں، ایک خاموش آکشن کی طرح لگتا ہے، بس مجھے یہ نہیں پتہ کہ کیا کرنا ہے۔

just found a tiny forgotten seed packet from last spring while cleaning, planted it in the garden and somehow they sprouted—i thought i had messed up the whole season but now it’s blooming with these vibrant flowers that i didn’t think would even grow here, like how is this real, such a small thing but it’s lifting my mood, everything feels lighter right now.

5 attempts and all i have is silence, scrolling through contacts but all i feel is the void of people who have faded away, yaan, matlab samjho na, कोई समझتا نہیں, just me and this rejection letter.