no because the other night, I spent hours digging through my old photos, trying to remember if there was a moment where I actually loved the way my body looked. every selfie I scrolled past made me realize I only posted the ones that hid the truth. I used filters and angles to FEIGN confidence, but inside I still wonder why I don't feel GOOD ENOUGH when I catch my reflection in a store window. it’...
yooo, after two years in this city, i still eat every meal alone. even got comfortable enough to talk to myself while staring at the wall. last week, i ordered takeout from that new Thai place, and the delivery guy probably thinks i am hosting a dinner party for one. sometimes, i think about how i’m basically a human pet that talks back, but nobody seems to want to adopt me. it's ironic, really. I...
it's not that I'm lonely... it’s just that I've spent two years in this city talking to my sandwich every lunchtime like it's some sort of therapist. honestly, I did not anticipate my work from home job would lead me to existential discussions with condiments. I have debates over mustard versus mayo as if I’m uncovering the secrets of the universe. at this point, I feel like a contestant on some absurd cooking show where the only judge is my own voice saying "sure, that’ll do."
it's not that I'm lonely... it’s just that I've spent two years in this city talking to my sandwich every lunchtime like it's some sort of therapist. honestly, I did not anticipate my work from home job would lead me to existential discussions with condiments. I have debates over mustard versus mayo as if I’m uncovering the secrets of the universe. at this point, I feel like a contestant on some absurd cooking show where the only judge is my own voice saying "sure, that’ll do."
wait, I just found out my estranged aunt got approved for that kidney donation program she applied to like, months ago. the whole family thought it would be impossible, especially after all those doctors said she was "too high risk." now, she gets to turn her life around, literally and figuratively, and my parents finally get a break from financial worry because they were seriously considering tap...