the way that the judge actually listened to us today. it felt surreal, like waking up from a nightmare. after six years of chaos, and all the times we thought it was going to blow up in our faces. but today, witnesses finally stuck to their guns and the accusations felt like they held weight for once. even when i was ready to lose hope, yaar, it somehow came together. i cannot believe it actually ...
no because the other night, I spent hours digging through my old photos, trying to remember if there was a moment where I actually loved the way my body looked. every selfie I scrolled past made me realize I only posted the ones that hid the truth. I used filters and angles to FEIGN confidence, but inside I still wonder why I don't feel GOOD ENOUGH when I catch my reflection in a store window. it’...
yooo, after two years in this city, i still eat every meal alone. even got comfortable enough to talk to myself while staring at the wall. last week, i ordered takeout from that new Thai place, and the delivery guy probably thinks i am hosting a dinner party for one. sometimes, i think about how i’m basically a human pet that talks back, but nobody seems to want to adopt me. it's ironic, really. I have more conversations with the takeout containers than with actual people.
yooo, after two years in this city, i still eat every meal alone. even got comfortable enough to talk to myself while staring at the wall. last week, i ordered takeout from that new Thai place, and the delivery guy probably thinks i am hosting a dinner party for one. sometimes, i think about how i’m basically a human pet that talks back, but nobody seems to want to adopt me. it's ironic, really. I have more conversations with the takeout containers than with actual people.
it's not that I'm lonely... it’s just that I've spent two years in this city talking to my sandwich every lunchtime like it's some sort of therapist. honestly, I did not anticipate my work from home job would lead me to existential discussions with condiments. I have debates over mustard versus mayo as if I’m uncovering the secrets of the universe. at this point, I feel like a contestant on some a...