yaar, literally just opened my cupboard and all i found was old flour and like three spices, अब groceries के लिए पैसे कहाँ से लाऊँ, घर वाले समझते नहीं.
so there was this time in middle school when i thought it would be cool to compliment my crush’s shoes—like "those are some fly kicks"—but i accidentally said "those are some fly pigs" and my whole class started cracking up and i wanted to die right then and there.
sitting at this coffee shop, the one with the weird art on the walls, and watching the barista get a message from someone telling her they are moving into a nice place and it just makes me think about how my friend is always posting about their latest trip and my cheap studio feels like a cage now, like why can't i figure out how to do anything but tread water, sometimes i just want to escape this life but then my mind drifts to if i would still have the same people in my life if i took that leap, like would they be supportive or just… keep scrolling, ya know, and then there's the lingering smell of burnt toast because someone in the back is just messing up breakfast again, and i guess i thought it would feel different?
sitting at this coffee shop, the one with the weird art on the walls, and watching the barista get a message from someone telling her they are moving into a nice place and it just makes me think about how my friend is always posting about their latest trip and my cheap studio feels like a cage now, like why can't i figure out how to do anything but tread water, sometimes i just want to escape this life but then my mind drifts to if i would still have the same people in my life if i took that leap, like would they be supportive or just… keep scrolling, ya know, and then there's the lingering smell of burnt toast because someone in the back is just messing up breakfast again, and i guess i thought it would feel different?
i used to write letters to my younger self and pretend they would magically fix everything but now it just feels like a sad way to process how i let my dreams fade. nobody knows how much i wish i could go back and change things, but now it feels too late.