i just saw a video of Savannah Guthrie begging for help in a case that feels miles away, and like, suddenly all the trivial stuff in my life seems irrelevant. my friends literally have no idea that my life is held together by the string of my last paycheck and a few too many “oh my god, this is just temporary” speeches i give to myself in the mirror. they see my smile and think “they're thriving” ...
no because I just realized I have this giant list of contacts that I've never called for anything important, like, literally not once have I dialed someone to share a really good pizza place or just like, cry over life, but when I look through the list, it feels like scrolling through a playlist of songs nobody ever hits play on, and I am left wondering how I went from sharing my deepest thoughts ...
I keep posting pictures of my lunches online, like I'm living this glamorous life. What no one sees is me scrounging in my couch cushions for loose change just to grab a sandwich. I don't have a 'job' in the traditional sense, just a parade of unpaid gigs and this side hustle nobody really talks about. So, here I am pretending my biggest dilemma is what color to dye my hair next, when in reality, I’m battling hidden bills and anxiety over student loans I can’t seem to outrun. That bright avocado toast? A last-ditch effort to convince myself I’m thriving, when the truth is I won’t even have enough for a cup of coffee tomorrow. #KeepingUpAppearances #HiddenStruggles
I keep posting pictures of my lunches online, like I'm living this glamorous life. What no one sees is me scrounging in my couch cushions for loose change just to grab a sandwich. I don't have a 'job' in the traditional sense, just a parade of unpaid gigs and this side hustle nobody really talks about. So, here I am pretending my biggest dilemma is what color to dye my hair next, when in reality, I’m battling hidden bills and anxiety over student loans I can’t seem to outrun. That bright avocado toast? A last-ditch effort to convince myself I’m thriving, when the truth is I won’t even have enough for a cup of coffee tomorrow. #KeepingUpAppearances #HiddenStruggles
wait, saw that rahmanullah gurbaz news and felt like he’s the one who got away, na? like, matlab, he’s withdrawing, but here i am, ghosting my own life decisions for months. kuch samajh nahi aa raha hai. saw my ex’s engagement post last night and while everyone’s busy saying “congratulations,” i’m like, “should i just log off life too?” #RahmanullahGurbaz #SelfAwareness