sometimes when i hear a siren it feels like the whole world is crashing down all over again, like a reminder that everything is still waiting to pull me under, and people just don’t see how heavy that really is.
i stood in front of the mirror—remembering that time i spent two hours debating if i should wear a sweater or a jacket and just never went out at all because i couldn’t shake the feeling of not belonging anywhere—now i can barely remember the last time i felt like i could just be with someone without worrying if they even want to see me.
sat in the emergency room and when they asked for an emergency contact i just sat there. five years in this city and not one name to give, guess thats how it goes.
sat in the emergency room and when they asked for an emergency contact i just sat there. five years in this city and not one name to give, guess thats how it goes.
i went to the store and stood in the middle of the aisle for like five minutes trying to remember what i came for and all i could think about was how ridiculous it is that i can memorize random lyrics but can't recall basic things like grocery items. the worst part is now i am stuck feeling like a total mess because i just walked out with nothing.