saw a neighbor get their car fixed at this fancy place while i am just here hoping my old junker doesn’t break down again, feels like every little repair is a mountain. my son had a birthday party and all the kids got these new toys and i watched them play while i stood there with the same two battered action figures from last year, just sinking sinking into this feeling.
i went to the grocery store today and felt this weird emptiness watching everyone else grab their organic produce and specialty cheeses while i’m just here trying to stretch my paycheck that barely covers rent for this tiny apartment with the peeling paint, and all i could think was how i keep playing by the rules but my life looks more like a checklist of missed chances and unfunded dreams.
yaar, matlab samjho na, four years later, and they are still setting up matrimonial profiles like it is a hobby—घर वाले समझते नहीं that I exist outside of their little fairytale. sometimes I just want to send them a memo saying “hello, I am right here and not just a background character in your outdated soap opera.”
yaar, matlab samjho na, four years later, and they are still setting up matrimonial profiles like it is a hobby—घर वाले समझते नहीं that I exist outside of their little fairytale. sometimes I just want to send them a memo saying “hello, I am right here and not just a background character in your outdated soap opera.”
i keep wondering if it was wrong of me to laugh when i found my dad's old box of tools in the garage covered in rust, and i thought maybe he should have picked a hobby instead of holding onto it all this time, but who knows, right?