some nights i sit on this old couch that smells like cigarettes and stale takeout, watching my neighbors light up their nice grills, laughing over beers while i count the dollars in my pocket for a cheap frozen dinner, wondering why i can’t seem to get a break after eight years but they’re all just moving up, getting promotions, new cars, like nothing even happened, meanwhile im stuck scrolling th...
so there i was in a facility trying to get my head straight when my boss sends me a “we are letting you go due to job abandonment” email and i thought, oh perfect timing, right between my existential crisis and figuring out if i can ever forgive myself for eating a whole box of cereal for dinner at 3 am while watching an infomercial about instant regret, so yeah, real professional environment over...
said yes to going out tomorrow and all i can think about is how much i would rather sit at home with my thoughts, maybe it’s better to just stare at the wall than force small talk with strangers. some days i just want to disappear into nothingness, but here i am, putting on a smile for a life that feels fake.
said yes to going out tomorrow and all i can think about is how much i would rather sit at home with my thoughts, maybe it’s better to just stare at the wall than force small talk with strangers. some days i just want to disappear into nothingness, but here i am, putting on a smile for a life that feels fake.
delivering food now but sometimes i still hear the faint echo of “doctor” in my head like a bad podcast where the host won't stop repeating themselves, just in case i forgot who i used to be while carrying someone else's dinner order through the rain