कुछ दिनों से सोच रही हूँ — एक टाइम पर पूरी जिंदगी के लिए दोस्त समझा था मैंने उसे, पर अब लगता है जैसे उस वक्त कुछ और ही था, कोई समझता नहीं, bas contact list को देखती हूँ और मन करता है एक टेक्स्ट भेजूँ, पर मैं चुप रह जाती हूँ — बस।
some nights i sit on this old couch that smells like cigarettes and stale takeout, watching my neighbors light up their nice grills, laughing over beers while i count the dollars in my pocket for a cheap frozen dinner, wondering why i can’t seem to get a break after eight years but they’re all just moving up, getting promotions, new cars, like nothing even happened, meanwhile im stuck scrolling th...
so there i was in a facility trying to get my head straight when my boss sends me a “we are letting you go due to job abandonment” email and i thought, oh perfect timing, right between my existential crisis and figuring out if i can ever forgive myself for eating a whole box of cereal for dinner at 3 am while watching an infomercial about instant regret, so yeah, real professional environment over here.
so there i was in a facility trying to get my head straight when my boss sends me a “we are letting you go due to job abandonment” email and i thought, oh perfect timing, right between my existential crisis and figuring out if i can ever forgive myself for eating a whole box of cereal for dinner at 3 am while watching an infomercial about instant regret, so yeah, real professional environment over here.
said yes to going out tomorrow and all i can think about is how much i would rather sit at home with my thoughts, maybe it’s better to just stare at the wall than force small talk with strangers. some days i just want to disappear into nothingness, but here i am, putting on a smile for a life that feels fake.