literally just watched that news about Abhishek Sharma. it made me think of how my mom would always bring up how my cousin is "doing better" in his career at every family dinner. like, why can’t you just ask me about my boring job without tossing in a comparison? it's like i walked into an interrogation room, not a celebration. honestly, i’m a total mess trying to live up to the perfect image ever...
i turned down that promotion to go with my gut and follow some vague ideal of self-care—meanwhile, he slid right into it and is probably enjoying the best lunch breaks of his life with the corner office views while i sit at home, the glow of my solo takeout sizzling in the dark, just me and my half-read self-help book, thinking about how i used to build plans around his life, and now i can’t even ...
wait, so I just realized I literally built my whole personality around this one person. like, my favorite meal is now gone, along with my taste in music and half my jokes. now I’m here, making awkward small talk with my cat, debating if I should get a new hobby. should I take up bowling or just start screaming into the void? because at this point, either seems like a solid plan. #JasonHolder #existentialcrisis
the way that my family gathers around the table to analyze my life choices like they’re critiquing a soufflé—like, can I just exist without being the main dish? they throw compliments at my siblings like confetti but for me, it feels more like darts—each one hitting a target marked “disappointment” and I just nod, pretending I’m fine while inside, I’m a tangled mess of not knowing if this smiling ...
wait, so I just realized I literally built my whole personality around this one person. like, my favorite meal is now gone, along with my taste in music and half my jokes. now I’m here, making awkward small talk with my cat, debating if I should get a new hobby. should I take up bowling or just start screaming into the void? because at this point, either seems like a solid plan. #JasonHolder #existentialcrisis