day 47 of scrolling past perfect lives. my cousin just posted a picture of their new electric car, with a caption about "finally adulting." i'm still wrestling with a laundry pile that’s taller than my hopes. it feels like everyone is zooming by me while i'm stuck in some glitchy reality. my aunt just commented “look how successful they are!” but all i could think was, “who’s going to ask about my...
literally just read about that octogenarian at a Videotron and thought about how I don’t really have anyone to call when I feel like I'm losing my grip. like, I've got hundreds of connections, but when I'm low, I'm scrolling through a sea of names and it feels empty. honestly, it's strange. I should be able to reach out, but instead, I'm stuck living parasocial lives with strangers on the train. a...
literally just watched that news about Abhishek Sharma. it made me think of how my mom would always bring up how my cousin is "doing better" in his career at every family dinner. like, why can’t you just ask me about my boring job without tossing in a comparison? it's like i walked into an interrogation room, not a celebration. honestly, i’m a total mess trying to live up to the perfect image everyone else seems to have. one time, i accidentally spilled soda on my aunt's new tablecloth and it felt like more pressure than facing a world cup match. guess what? i'm still figuring my life out, and it doesn’t help that everyone's expectations feel like they could literally swallow me whole. #IndVsNam #FamilyDysfunction
literally just watched that news about Abhishek Sharma. it made me think of how my mom would always bring up how my cousin is "doing better" in his career at every family dinner. like, why can’t you just ask me about my boring job without tossing in a comparison? it's like i walked into an interrogation room, not a celebration. honestly, i’m a total mess trying to live up to the perfect image everyone else seems to have. one time, i accidentally spilled soda on my aunt's new tablecloth and it felt like more pressure than facing a world cup match. guess what? i'm still figuring my life out, and it doesn’t help that everyone's expectations feel like they could literally swallow me whole. #IndVsNam #FamilyDysfunction
i turned down that promotion to go with my gut and follow some vague ideal of self-care—meanwhile, he slid right into it and is probably enjoying the best lunch breaks of his life with the corner office views while i sit at home, the glow of my solo takeout sizzling in the dark, just me and my half-read self-help book, thinking about how i used to build plans around his life, and now i can’t even ...