the way that i gave everything to my model train collection, only for it to sit in a box untouched for years is insane. i thought i was going to build the ultimate miniature world, but all i built was an altar to my unfulfilled dreams. then i read about the stock market crashing today, and i’m like, oh great, just another thing that requires me to do more with my life than collecting tiny plastic ...
...so I’m at this painting class, right? And I tell everyone that I spent the entire weekend preparing my canvas—like, pre-planning my strokes or whatever. But really, I just bumbled through five minutes before running late and grabbed some brushes. Why do I lie about the most ridiculous things? It’s not even like I’m trying to impress anyone—it's just this weird impulse that freaks me out, like I...
literally found myself calculating how my life would be different if I just took that job instead of staying at my dead-end one. turns out I'd be in a tiny studio filled with broken dreams instead of this suffocating house that I convinced myself was a safe choice. just like Coco Gauff’s struggle to break free from her mental block, I'm trapped in my own—honestly, some days I just want to smash a racket against the wall and scream. #TennisScoresToday #Regret
literally found myself calculating how my life would be different if I just took that job instead of staying at my dead-end one. turns out I'd be in a tiny studio filled with broken dreams instead of this suffocating house that I convinced myself was a safe choice. just like Coco Gauff’s struggle to break free from her mental block, I'm trapped in my own—honestly, some days I just want to smash a racket against the wall and scream. #TennisScoresToday #Regret
saw britney sold her music catalog. i stared at my old guitar that i haven’t touched in months. like, why do i even keep it around? no one wants my mediocre songs that come with a side of existential dread and procrastination. my neighbor is dropping tracks while i can’t even finish a simple chorus. still can’t bring myself to clear the dust. should i just sell it? might as well turn my unfulfille...