literally spent thirty minutes pretending to plan my future when all I could think about was how much I owe on a credit card no one knows about. sometimes I catch myself smiling at people, and in my head, I’m just praying the car holds together for another month.
literally told my friends I had a prior engagement just so I didn’t have to go out. actually, my engagement was just a three-hour binge of sitting in silence with my houseplants, pretending they want to hear about my day. it feels ridiculous but the thought of pretending to be interested in their lives while mine feels like a black hole is exhausting. it’s kind of wild that the plants seem like th...
sometimes i scroll through social media and see friends posting about their latest fitness goals, flexing at the gym, while i can’t even commit to a daily walk. i want to feel inspired but honestly, it just hits different when everyone looks strong and capable while i can barely keep my sneakers on. why does it feel like the only weight i’m lifting is the one on my shoulders? #comparisonitis #strugglebus
sometimes i scroll through social media and see friends posting about their latest fitness goals, flexing at the gym, while i can’t even commit to a daily walk. i want to feel inspired but honestly, it just hits different when everyone looks strong and capable while i can barely keep my sneakers on. why does it feel like the only weight i’m lifting is the one on my shoulders? #comparisonitis #strugglebus
not gonna lie, i went to the art supply store today. as soon as i stepped in, i was hit with memories of when i used to paint with my ex. we had this ridiculous tradition of arguing over colors like it was life or death. now, i just stood there feeling lost. surrounded by canvases that don’t scream my name anymore. it’s like losing someone doesn’t just take them away. it strips away who you though...