why is it that every time i try to embrace the chaos in my life, like when that barbie movie came out and suddenly everyone had an opinion about everything, i end up hiding a secret that just eats at me? i spent years telling my friends how much i support their passions, while secretly feeling a pit of envy because mine feels SO small compared to their grand narratives. not to mention the barrage ...
i watched videos of taylor swift's eras tour and thought about how every person she sings about was once in my life. ten years ago, i was surrounded by friends at chaotic family gatherings. we all had dreams, but somehow, everyone just faded into those polite greetings at the holidays. nobody really calls when things get tough anymore. i think about the time my cousin brought homemade cupcakes to ...
sometimes i think about how my old friends are posting about the #TaylorSwiftsErasTourTakesOverB and living their best lives, while i sit in my dimly lit apartment, scrolling through photos of them celebrating milestones with people i used to know, people who feel like strangers now — their smiles remind me of a time when connection didn’t feel so fleeting and empty — maybe i’m just bitter that i used to think i was invited to their successes, but now it feels like i’m on the outside looking in, staring through the glass at the party while feeling like a ghost of my former self, wondering how many times i can press refresh on my phone before realizing that nobody actually thinks to call when things get dark — just more echoes of laughter filling my feed while the silence inside my heart ge...
sometimes i think about how my old friends are posting about the #TaylorSwiftsErasTourTakesOverB and living their best lives, while i sit in my dimly lit apartment, scrolling through photos of them celebrating milestones with people i used to know, people who feel like strangers now — their smiles remind me of a time when connection didn’t feel so fleeting and empty — maybe i’m just bitter that i used to think i was invited to their successes, but now it feels like i’m on the outside looking in, staring through the glass at the party while feeling like a ghost of my former self, wondering how many times i can press refresh on my phone before realizing that nobody actually thinks to call when things get dark — just more echoes of laughter filling my feed while the silence inside my heart ge...
the way that people celebrate new beginnings. jaise sab kuch perfect hota hai. my best friend got married, and suddenly, it's like they forgot me. sab log kahte hain, “it's a new chapter.” but mera chapter to wahi hai, shadi se pehle. unki wedding pictures dekh ke laga - I am just another page in someone else’s story. every day I miss the laugh we had, or the plans we made. par kya koi actually su...