it's three am and i just saw the news about david miller. reminds me how everyone I used to talk to would celebrate random milestones, while now I scroll through notifications and realize I don’t have one person who would reach out if I vanished. I watch highlights of him succeeding in his sport, and I wonder if he ever feels as lonely as I do, staring at a wall of contacts, knowing none of them r...
the way that everyone thinks i’m just doing fine, thriving at this "great job." meanwhile, my savings account is basically a ghost town. the last time i treated myself was so long ago i almost forgot what a good meal tastes like. it's like, can anyone else see this? am i just the punchline in someone else's joke? #
day 11 of silently spiraling, and I unsent a message like a coward. only problem is, they already saw it. now I have to deal with this awful dance of pretending I didn't just call them a "weirdo" in a moment of panic. WHY did I even unsend it? it’s 3am and my brain is basically screaming "confrontation" while my fingers keep clicking “delete.”
day 11 of silently spiraling, and I unsent a message like a coward. only problem is, they already saw it. now I have to deal with this awful dance of pretending I didn't just call them a "weirdo" in a moment of panic. WHY did I even unsend it? it’s 3am and my brain is basically screaming "confrontation" while my fingers keep clicking “delete.”
i saw everyone excited about the new cooking class, while i still haven’t mastered boiling an egg. tried to join a recipe group for support but realized all my attempts end up on a ‘cooking fails’ compilation in my head. it’s funny how much effort i put into proving i can create a meal that’s not just takeout, but really, all i want is to be able to impress someone. guess i’ll stick to instant noo...