last night, my aunt cornered me about marriage at a family gathering—like I’m just supposed to ignore that I don’t even have health insurance. I spent the whole evening smiling through the questions while inside I’m crumbling, wondering how I managed to make my life look picture-perfect online when I can't even take care of the basics. it’s hard living like everything’s fine, when every day feels ...
yooo, so I caught feelings for someone who said they don’t do relationships, and now I’m out here fantasizing about revenge plans involving a group chat where I only send them memes of unkempt houses, like, “this could’ve been us, but noooooo,” as they swirl in their independence, living their best life, while I'm trapped in this relentless loop of self-doubt like... how did I even get here? #unre...
just realized i’ve been watching people share their happy couple moments like it’s a documentary about everyone’s life except mine. like, do i just like, sit in the background and cheer? it’s wild how much of myself i built around someone who is literally gone now, yet here i am, awkwardly practicing how to react to the “we got engaged” news that has not even happened in my world. it’s exhausting pretending i’m okay while feeling like a spectator in my own life.
just realized i’ve been watching people share their happy couple moments like it’s a documentary about everyone’s life except mine. like, do i just like, sit in the background and cheer? it’s wild how much of myself i built around someone who is literally gone now, yet here i am, awkwardly practicing how to react to the “we got engaged” news that has not even happened in my world. it’s exhausting pretending i’m okay while feeling like a spectator in my own life.
wait. saw everyone talking about Neymar and the Paulistão. it hit me that love is just like football, right? all these perfect couples around me, celebrating like they won a championship. meanwhile, i'm over here sitting alone, wondering when my heart will get a chance to score again. like, do people even know how much of myself i gave up just to be part of a team that crumbled? it's exhausting. #...