woke up this morning with a weird knot in my stomach, checked my bank account and it felt like a punch in the gut. just realized my old gym membership is still on autopay and thats like a meal i can’t afford this week, stupid mistake but here we are.
yaar, matlab samjho na, when the caste thing came out at work it felt like a ghost town, nobody invited me for coffee anymore and i just sit in my tiny apartment wondering why the promotion emails only go to my colleagues who are winning, they do team lunches and i sit here with my bhindi sabzi, जब कि सब जानते हैं, और कोई समझता नहीं
saw an old friend post about their promotion today while i am here in my tiny apartment trying to stretch my paycheck to the end of the month, and it hit me like a brick that they have no idea how hard it is for me just to get by while they are busy planning vacations and buying new furniture. like, we were supposed to be in this together and now it feels like i am still stuck while everyone else is moving on.
saw an old friend post about their promotion today while i am here in my tiny apartment trying to stretch my paycheck to the end of the month, and it hit me like a brick that they have no idea how hard it is for me just to get by while they are busy planning vacations and buying new furniture. like, we were supposed to be in this together and now it feels like i am still stuck while everyone else is moving on.
i was in the break room at work and just felt so out of place like no one talks to me and every time i see people laughing together it hits harder than usual, like its been so long since anyone's touched my shoulder or even just smiled at me like i'm visible, why is that so hard, i wish someone would just say hi.