literally, i was grinding at a job i thought was my passion. putting in late nights while dreaming of being a full-time quilter. yes, quilting. like, who even does that? now i realize my stress over jobless claims was just me avoiding the real issue—i hate my job but love the idea of living in a world of colorful fabrics. so, i started googling "am i the problem," and now here i am, contemplating ...
last night, I was binge-watching old episodes of that cooking show where everyone is literally trying not to cry while failing at making soufflés. then I realized, like, if San Jose Mayor Matt Mahan can jump into a race for California Governor, I should literally be allowed to open my own Michelin-star restaurant despite only ever mastering microwave popcorn. it’s the audacity of claiming a title ...
wait. i just found an old photo of me wearing a neon fanny pack and sparkly butterfly clips, and like—was that the peak of my existence or just a cry for help? like, how did i go from THAT to scrolling through strangers' lives wishing i could marry someone named Chad who owns a food truck in another state? i think i might just miss the confidence of believing i could be *anything*, including an influencer for glittery fashion disasters.
wait. i just found an old photo of me wearing a neon fanny pack and sparkly butterfly clips, and like—was that the peak of my existence or just a cry for help? like, how did i go from THAT to scrolling through strangers' lives wishing i could marry someone named Chad who owns a food truck in another state? i think i might just miss the confidence of believing i could be *anything*, including an influencer for glittery fashion disasters.
last night, i was scrolling through my spotify wrapped and just realized it’s basically a THERAPY session with soundtrack changes. apparently, i’ve gone from "existential dread" playlists to "angry productivity" ones, all while managing a slight obsession with Matt Mahan’s motivational speeches in the background. what does it say about me that my top artist is someone who inspires people to take a...