i saw the news about kai rooney making his debut while i’m still here sitting at my laptop, scrolling through the same five tabs for months, like every missed opportunity feels like a goal post that moved ten years too far. all my old friends are busy living their best lives while i can barely muster up the energy to pretend to care about work deadlines. sometimes i think about sending a message j...
sometimes i wonder if i'll ever break free from this job that feels like a ghost of who i once was. my friends talk about promotions while i'm stuck in 2019 like some tragic time warp. but maybe it's easier this way—less pressure, less expectation. still, every day i watch everyone couple up and get ahead, and it feels like a personal failure, like watching marseille beat strasbourg while i just s...
not gonna lie, family gatherings feel like I’m auditioning for a role in a tragicomic play where my life choices are up for debate. every smile feels like a tick mark on a scorecard where my siblings are the golden children, and I'm the uninvited cousin showing up in sweatpants and a bowl of ramen. I can’t keep pretending that I’m not sweating bullets while they interrogate my job prospects like I’m trying to unearth a hidden treasure map—maybe my true calling is simply dodging questions.
not gonna lie, family gatherings feel like I’m auditioning for a role in a tragicomic play where my life choices are up for debate. every smile feels like a tick mark on a scorecard where my siblings are the golden children, and I'm the uninvited cousin showing up in sweatpants and a bowl of ramen. I can’t keep pretending that I’m not sweating bullets while they interrogate my job prospects like I’m trying to unearth a hidden treasure map—maybe my true calling is simply dodging questions.
it's 2am and i just realized i never invite anyone over anymore. it’s not even about them leaving. it’s about the FEAR of them seeing me crumble and deciding they’re too good for this... so i keep it all in, like a well-curated museum nobody visits.