ever wonder if anyone sees you drowning under layers of hidden debt while you smile through it all? just like this solar eclipse today, you can only catch a glimpse of my struggles if you know where to look. while everyone is busy pretending they’re under the bright light of success, I’m sitting here, broke, planning my escape route and contemplating which bill to ignore this month. is that sunshi...
last night, i scrolled through my feed and saw that all my friends are thriving while i’m just trying to figure out if i’m still allowed to buy the frozen pizza. like, everyone seems to be living their best lives, throwing parties in their new kitchens and posting pictures of vacations i can’t even dream of. i literally caught myself daydreaming about one of them having a minor disaster, like thei...
no because, wallah, I sat there listening to my parents brag about my “job success” in front of the relatives. little do they know I’m drowning in bills and just barely holding on. while they compare me to my cousins, I smile—inside, I feel the ضغط of all their expectations. honestly, ya3ni it's hard pretending that I'm thriving when habibi, it’s lonely here—maybe I should just run away from all of this and disappear. but where would I even go when my name is tied to this pressure? # #TrappedInExpectations
no because, wallah, I sat there listening to my parents brag about my “job success” in front of the relatives. little do they know I’m drowning in bills and just barely holding on. while they compare me to my cousins, I smile—inside, I feel the ضغط of all their expectations. honestly, ya3ni it's hard pretending that I'm thriving when habibi, it’s lonely here—maybe I should just run away from all of this and disappear. but where would I even go when my name is tied to this pressure? # #TrappedInExpectations
day 21 of pretending my life is fine while eating instant noodles for dinner. my coworkers think i'm thriving because i still wear my favorite shoes. meanwhile, my credit card bills sit on my kitchen counter like a chorus of judgement. it's so bad that even my vision board is just a list of things i can't afford, like that vacation, that car, and maybe, just maybe, a life that feels real instead o...