last night, i scrolled through my feed and saw that all my friends are thriving while i’m just trying to figure out if i’m still allowed to buy the frozen pizza. like, everyone seems to be living their best lives, throwing parties in their new kitchens and posting pictures of vacations i can’t even dream of. i literally caught myself daydreaming about one of them having a minor disaster, like thei...
no because, wallah, I sat there listening to my parents brag about my “job success” in front of the relatives. little do they know I’m drowning in bills and just barely holding on. while they compare me to my cousins, I smile—inside, I feel the ضغط of all their expectations. honestly, ya3ni it's hard pretending that I'm thriving when habibi, it’s lonely here—maybe I should just run away from all o...
day 21 of pretending my life is fine while eating instant noodles for dinner. my coworkers think i'm thriving because i still wear my favorite shoes. meanwhile, my credit card bills sit on my kitchen counter like a chorus of judgement. it's so bad that even my vision board is just a list of things i can't afford, like that vacation, that car, and maybe, just maybe, a life that feels real instead of this twisted joke.
day 21 of pretending my life is fine while eating instant noodles for dinner. my coworkers think i'm thriving because i still wear my favorite shoes. meanwhile, my credit card bills sit on my kitchen counter like a chorus of judgement. it's so bad that even my vision board is just a list of things i can't afford, like that vacation, that car, and maybe, just maybe, a life that feels real instead of this twisted joke.
day 86 of this unplanned solitude and i just realized i have thirty-six contacts in my phone, and not one of them knows that my favorite sandwich is actually peanut butter and pickles, which is why it always feels like i’m drowning in a crowded room, where the relatives laugh too loudly and the aunts keep asking about careers like i’m on a game show—who knew life could be a live-action waiting roo...