sat at this dinner party surrounded by people laughing and drinking, they have no idea i just spent my last twenty on laundry and i still need to buy groceries but my fridge is empty—it's so quiet when everyone toasts and i just want to disappear. one day i will tell them, but for now i just smile and leave early.
honestly feel like i am living in a weird alternate universe where no one understands that just because i look fine doesn't mean i am. spent forever this morning gearing up to do something simple like grocery shopping but had to sit in the car for what felt like hours just to find the energy to go inside.
बात ये है कि जब भी मैं किताबें देखती हूँ, तो एक अजीब सा एहसास होता है जैसे मेरे सामने खड़ा कोई है जो मेरे लिए पढ़ता है, और ये समझना कि मेरे भाई तो सफल हो रहे हैं, जबकि मैं अपने नाम तक नहीं पढ़ पा रही।
बात ये है कि जब भी मैं किताबें देखती हूँ, तो एक अजीब सा एहसास होता है जैसे मेरे सामने खड़ा कोई है जो मेरे लिए पढ़ता है, और ये समझना कि मेरे भाई तो सफल हो रहे हैं, जबकि मैं अपने नाम तक नहीं पढ़ पा रही।
yaar, matlab samjho na, my brother's chained up like a new age hero in a bad sitcom but instead of battling monsters, he is just fighting off “spirits” because apparently, a baba can cure him better than a doctor, घर वाले समझते नहीं, like I didn't know medieval times were back in style.