woke up and turned off the alarm without even realizing i did it, it is 6 am but feels like i am in this endless loop of sleep, i just lay there and think about the time when i used to run at dawn like it was part of me and now i can barely crawl out of bed, guess you just lose parts of yourself over time without knowing how.
woke up today and realized i forgot to feed my plants again, at this point they are probably thriving on my existential dread more than sunlight and water, but honestly what do i know about nourishment anyway when i can't even keep my own soul from wilting in this garden of law and order where im not supposed to exist, so cheers to another day of being a well-watered ghost just trying to blend in.
i spent an hour organizing my sock drawer like it was the most important project ever, only to realize halfway through that i had not eaten all day and my brain was like, cool, great job on the socks, now go faint or something. now i am staring at these perfectly folded socks wondering if they will ever forgive me for pretending they matter more than actual meals.
i spent an hour organizing my sock drawer like it was the most important project ever, only to realize halfway through that i had not eaten all day and my brain was like, cool, great job on the socks, now go faint or something. now i am staring at these perfectly folded socks wondering if they will ever forgive me for pretending they matter more than actual meals.
so i got a flat tire at the worst possible time, like right outside this tiny convenience store that looked like it hadn't seen a customer in ages. i go inside to ask for help and the cashier just stares at me like i asked him to perform open heart surgery while he pulls out a sandwich and proceeds to explain how tuna is his favorite food while my car’s tire is staring me down.