so i literally just sat in my apartment for weeks watching everyone post their achievements and fun nights out, while i am stuck here with this elevator broken and honestly my only entertainment is watching dust gather on the windowsill.
it is wild how i can feel surrounded by people all day but still not want to talk to anyone, just sitting there staring at the same blank wall as if waiting for some kind of sign that it is okay to be lonely like this, no texts coming through or anything that says i matter to anyone.
checked my bank account and saw that i had just enough for groceries but definitely not for that new video game i've been wanting. feel like i just keep watching my plans slip away, like, what's the point of even wanting stuff when i know i cannot afford it.
checked my bank account and saw that i had just enough for groceries but definitely not for that new video game i've been wanting. feel like i just keep watching my plans slip away, like, what's the point of even wanting stuff when i know i cannot afford it.
i have this weird collection of broken watches that i've kept for years like they're still gonna tell me something but really they just sit there and remind me of all the time i wasted waiting for things that never happened.