یار، مجھے یاد ہے وہ دن جب کسی کے جانے کا احساس مجھے اتنا اکیلا کر گیا تھا—دوستوں سے جڑنے کی کوشش کی لیکن صرف خاموشی ملی۔ فون پر نام دیکھ کر بھی کچھ احساس نہیں ہوتا، لگتا ہے کوئی سمجھتا نہیں۔
was just trying to find change for the bus and realized i had to choose between food or that stupid new charging cable i needed but couldn’t even get either because of how low my balance is, and then my stomach just kept growling in the silence of the store. it’s weird being 30 and feeling like i’m living off leftovers while counting every cent like some high school kid without a job, ugh.
sometimes i feel like the waiting lists are just a reminder that no one really cares, like we are all just stuck in a loop of noise and i am so tired of being the one who always asks for help but never gets it. i think i might just be meant to deal with this alone, alone for a long, long time.
sometimes i feel like the waiting lists are just a reminder that no one really cares, like we are all just stuck in a loop of noise and i am so tired of being the one who always asks for help but never gets it. i think i might just be meant to deal with this alone, alone for a long, long time.
so i just found out my plant that i thought was dying is actually thriving, like wow i was so ready for the heartbreak, thought it was all over, but here i am just staring at it in disbelief and feeling this weird mix of relief and joy. like did it just do that for me??