just got to the point where i literally cannot even make a cup of coffee without feeling like everything is too loud and bright, how do people just act like nothing happened. like i walk through my own house and it feels like a ghost town and i just miss everything so much but nobody even asks anymore.
sometimes i think about how much time i spend organizing my closet while knowing there are things in my life that could use that attention too, like friendships or... anything really. but i just keep folding shirts instead of reaching out to people, like it matters more or something.
kuch dino pehle meri friend ki engagement thi, sab ne bada celebrate kiya, aur mein bas akele soch raha tha ki yaar, matlab samjho na, मेरे पास अपनी एक छोटी सी नौकरी है, एक छोटा सा फ्लैट है, और किसी ने भी नहीं पूछा कि कैसे चल रहा है, जैसे सब कुछ नॉर्मल है, लेकिन अंदर से टूट रहा हूँ, कोई समझता नहीं
kuch dino pehle meri friend ki engagement thi, sab ne bada celebrate kiya, aur mein bas akele soch raha tha ki yaar, matlab samjho na, मेरे पास अपनी एक छोटी सी नौकरी है, एक छोटा सा फ्लैट है, और किसी ने भी नहीं पूछा कि कैसे चल रहा है, जैसे सब कुछ नॉर्मल है, लेकिन अंदर से टूट रहा हूँ, कोई समझता नहीं
just found out that the last person to message my buddy before he took his life was the guy from our unit who always joked about winning the "most forgettable" award and honestly, how is that even real, like a tragic punchline nobody wanted, and now it's just this endless loop of dark irony that makes me want to scream and laugh at the same time, thanks for nothing life