day 47 of obsessively checking the weather because my best friend let slip that i have a thing for spaghetti. now, i can't walk past an Italian restaurant without feeling my cheeks flush. my brain keeps spiraling, imagining everyone looking at me like i’m the spaghetti monster lurking in the shadows, waiting for my chance to devour dinner companions. this is what i get for trusting someone with my...
it's not that i can’t make friends... it's just every time i try to engage in a conversation, my brain goes on strike. like the other day, i started talking about the liverpool vs brighton match and somehow spiraled into an existential crisis about my choice of pizza toppings. so there i was, discussing the merits of pepperoni over cheese in a room full of strangers while internally i’m screaming ...
day 14 of obsessively refreshing the GATE exam answer key — my parents text me asking if I have plans for the holidays while I'm still replaying the conversation where I froze up when they compared my results to my cousin's, and I couldn't even muster up the courage to explain how much pressure feels like drowning. they don’t get it, and maybe I didn't explain it right — or maybe I just never learned how to say I need help. #GateExamAnswerKey #FamilyExpectations
day 14 of obsessively refreshing the GATE exam answer key — my parents text me asking if I have plans for the holidays while I'm still replaying the conversation where I froze up when they compared my results to my cousin's, and I couldn't even muster up the courage to explain how much pressure feels like drowning. they don’t get it, and maybe I didn't explain it right — or maybe I just never learned how to say I need help. #GateExamAnswerKey #FamilyExpectations
literally just saw my ex's engagement post while scrolling, yaar. matlab, it feels like everyone is leveling up while I'm stuck here, watching from the sidelines. my friends are getting houses, new cars, and I'm barely able to sort my own life out. it's like they all got the cheat code and I'm still on the first level. right now, i'm just here pretending it doesn't hurt, but deep down... hai na, I...