it’s wild how someone you literally grew up with can suddenly act like you are a stranger. i see them living this new life, and honestly, part of me feels like a ghost haunting their past. i’m supposed to cheer for their success but instead, it feels like a punchline in a joke i never wanted to be a part of. #resentment #growingapart
day 47 of obsessively checking the weather because my best friend let slip that i have a thing for spaghetti. now, i can't walk past an Italian restaurant without feeling my cheeks flush. my brain keeps spiraling, imagining everyone looking at me like i’m the spaghetti monster lurking in the shadows, waiting for my chance to devour dinner companions. this is what i get for trusting someone with my...
it's not that i can’t make friends... it's just every time i try to engage in a conversation, my brain goes on strike. like the other day, i started talking about the liverpool vs brighton match and somehow spiraled into an existential crisis about my choice of pizza toppings. so there i was, discussing the merits of pepperoni over cheese in a room full of strangers while internally i’m screaming that i forgot how to socialize. at this point, my cat probably knows more people than i do. and then, someone asked me for my favorite team. i panicked and said "breadsticks." yaar, i swear this city might as well just be my personal purgatory of small talk and awkward silences. #LiverpoolVsBrighton #AwkwardLife
it's not that i can’t make friends... it's just every time i try to engage in a conversation, my brain goes on strike. like the other day, i started talking about the liverpool vs brighton match and somehow spiraled into an existential crisis about my choice of pizza toppings. so there i was, discussing the merits of pepperoni over cheese in a room full of strangers while internally i’m screaming that i forgot how to socialize. at this point, my cat probably knows more people than i do. and then, someone asked me for my favorite team. i panicked and said "breadsticks." yaar, i swear this city might as well just be my personal purgatory of small talk and awkward silences. #LiverpoolVsBrighton #AwkwardLife
day 14 of obsessively refreshing the GATE exam answer key — my parents text me asking if I have plans for the holidays while I'm still replaying the conversation where I froze up when they compared my results to my cousin's, and I couldn't even muster up the courage to explain how much pressure feels like drowning. they don’t get it, and maybe I didn't explain it right — or maybe I just never lear...