i accidentally liked a photo of us from last winter, and the algorithm doesn’t know how to keep me from diving headfirst into that bittersweet rabbit hole. everyone else is sliding into a relationship like it's the new weather trend, and here i am stuck watching the temperature rise and fall like my heart did when you walked out. it’s mild outside, but my insides feel like a polar vortex. i want t...
it’s 3am and i just quadruple texted someone. why does my brain do this? first it was about the latest "tasmania vs new south wales" news and how that totally impacts my stress levels, but now i'm spiraling. maybe they will think i’m dead or something. i keep crafting these elaborate scenarios in my head. all the while, i'm sitting in my pajamas, listening to movie trailers, and crying like someon...
the way that I spent hours organizing my sock drawer, thinking it would somehow transform my life, only to realize it’s still just a bunch of mismatched socks and overwhelming clutter. like, why did I think aligning them by color would spark joy? now I’m just left staring at my sock collection while my laundry pile grows bigger and I can’t even find a matching pair. I gave everything to a simple chore that didn’t even give me the satisfaction of clean feet.
the way that I spent hours organizing my sock drawer, thinking it would somehow transform my life, only to realize it’s still just a bunch of mismatched socks and overwhelming clutter. like, why did I think aligning them by color would spark joy? now I’m just left staring at my sock collection while my laundry pile grows bigger and I can’t even find a matching pair. I gave everything to a simple chore that didn’t even give me the satisfaction of clean feet.
sometimes i wonder if my notes app is a glimpse into my worst self, with rants about people i pretend to like, wild theories about the world ending, and desperate plans for lives i will never actually live - it’s a treasure trove of secrets that would make anyone question my sanity, but honestly, part of me thrives on that chaos. #selfawareness #darkthoughts