just checked my account and saw that my heart sank like it was all those sleepless nights adding up, now my usual bills feel like this giant mountain i can’t climb, not to mention the emergency fund i told myself was building is completely gone, and how the hell do you even explain that to someone who thinks you still have a secure future when your savings is EMPTY and all you can think about is t...
just bumped into my high school lab partner at the park, like she’s thriving with her perfect dog and career, and here i am in my tiny apartment trying to find motivation to clean out the fridge. literally had to smile while my brain was screaming about my bills and her social media posts like how do you even do it, ugh.
staring at my account balance feels like some sick joke, 42 dollars left and i had to skip dinner just to buy a stupid birthday card because the last thing i want is to explain to someone why their party means so much to me when i can't even afford to cover my own basic stuff and honestly what is even the point of these celebrations when it feels like i’m drowning in every direction like my one comfort is being pushed away by balloons and cake and it's exhausting…
staring at my account balance feels like some sick joke, 42 dollars left and i had to skip dinner just to buy a stupid birthday card because the last thing i want is to explain to someone why their party means so much to me when i can't even afford to cover my own basic stuff and honestly what is even the point of these celebrations when it feels like i’m drowning in every direction like my one comfort is being pushed away by balloons and cake and it's exhausting…
फिर वो पन्ना देखा आज मैंने, एक साल हो गया उसे लिखे, शायद अब वो याद भी नहीं करता। जबसे वो चला गया, खाली सा लगता है सब, messages की गिनती कम होती गई, यारों की।