was in the bathroom and saw an empty bottle of prenatal vitamins on the shelf, felt like a cruel joke from the universe, guess i should just return them like they do with unwanted gifts. now i am at work making small talk like everything is fine when i really want to yell “congratulations on your perfect little lives, mine just crashed and burned."
so i thought i was sending a voice note to my friend about this weird dream where my cat was giving me relationship advice but i sent it to my boss instead. now i can never look him in the eye again.
just checked my account and saw that my heart sank like it was all those sleepless nights adding up, now my usual bills feel like this giant mountain i can’t climb, not to mention the emergency fund i told myself was building is completely gone, and how the hell do you even explain that to someone who thinks you still have a secure future when your savings is EMPTY and all you can think about is that one moment you thought you could just win it all back if you just played a little more…
just checked my account and saw that my heart sank like it was all those sleepless nights adding up, now my usual bills feel like this giant mountain i can’t climb, not to mention the emergency fund i told myself was building is completely gone, and how the hell do you even explain that to someone who thinks you still have a secure future when your savings is EMPTY and all you can think about is that one moment you thought you could just win it all back if you just played a little more…
just bumped into my high school lab partner at the park, like she’s thriving with her perfect dog and career, and here i am in my tiny apartment trying to find motivation to clean out the fridge. literally had to smile while my brain was screaming about my bills and her social media posts like how do you even do it, ugh.