life is really weird, like just yesterday i was thinking about how mom used to save the last bit of ghee in a tiny container but now i cant even afford a proper meal, going through my account and feeling sick when i saw that i might have to skip paying the electricity bill again, why does it always feel like i am drowning in numbers but everyone acts like everything's fine?
sat through dinner with my roommates, they kept talking about promotions and vacation plans while my meal just sat there. my takeout was cold and i had to force a smile, thinking about my bills and how im still here in this tiny apartment trying to make sense of it all.
yaar, matlab samjho na, when I finally saw that small approval email after weeks of worry and feeling like everything would fall apart – I almost dropped my phone, kya saala, didn't even think it would actually happen, just sitting here amazed by how relief can feel like this heavy weight lifted off my chest.
yaar, matlab samjho na, when I finally saw that small approval email after weeks of worry and feeling like everything would fall apart – I almost dropped my phone, kya saala, didn't even think it would actually happen, just sitting here amazed by how relief can feel like this heavy weight lifted off my chest.
tried to organize the pantry today because it was driving me nuts but all i did was shift things around and it still looks like a bomb went off, like, can we please talk about the state of these cans but then immediately feel guilty for wanting to vent about my very boring chaos while partner looks dead on their feet, ugh