yaar, matlab samjho na, scrolling through my contacts feels empty and literally nobody to reach out to. कुछ समझ नहीं आता, कब अकेलेपन से निकलूँगी, ये टेक्स्ट जो मैंने कभी नहीं भेजा।
जब भी किसी की याद आती है, मैं व्हाट्सएप पर उनका नंबर देखता हूँ और कुछ लिखने की कोशिश करता हूँ लेकिन फिर वो डिलीट कर देता हूँ, जैसे कोई बात ही नहीं थी, और घर वाले समझते नहीं कि कितना अकेलापन है, सोचता हूँ कि क्यूँ मैं ये भी नहीं कर पाता।
life is really weird, like just yesterday i was thinking about how mom used to save the last bit of ghee in a tiny container but now i cant even afford a proper meal, going through my account and feeling sick when i saw that i might have to skip paying the electricity bill again, why does it always feel like i am drowning in numbers but everyone acts like everything's fine?
life is really weird, like just yesterday i was thinking about how mom used to save the last bit of ghee in a tiny container but now i cant even afford a proper meal, going through my account and feeling sick when i saw that i might have to skip paying the electricity bill again, why does it always feel like i am drowning in numbers but everyone acts like everything's fine?
sat through dinner with my roommates, they kept talking about promotions and vacation plans while my meal just sat there. my takeout was cold and i had to force a smile, thinking about my bills and how im still here in this tiny apartment trying to make sense of it all.