yaar, kal mera dost engagement post karta hai aur main ab tak soch rahi thi ke main usse bhool gayi hoon, par sach yeh hai ke jab bhi unki khushiyaan dikh rahi hoti hain, tab mere dil mein bas ek hi khayal aata hai - kyun main ab bhi apne kaam se itni struggle kar rahi hoon? sab logon ne toh apne sapne haqiqat mein badal diye hain, ghar, car aur mein toh roz basic cheezon ke liye struggle karti ho...
i watched my friends buy houses while i can't even buy lunch without checking my bank account. everyone's posting photos of their fancy new cars, and i'm still making rice and beans like it's college. it's all fine, right? just me... not even close to thirty yet and feeling like a total... i don't know, a failure? like v. j. edgecombe trying to fit in on a team that's winning while i'm just trying...
last night, I sat in my living room, wrapped in a blanket like it could somehow erase the loneliness. my phone lit up with their new photos, smiling next to someone else. they needed space, but I can't help but feel more like a ghost in my own life, surrounded by a sea of contacts. hundreds of acquaintances but nobody to call when the silence gets too loud, which reminds me… I should probably stop hoarding those funeral outfits like I’m expecting the worst but hoping…
last night, I sat in my living room, wrapped in a blanket like it could somehow erase the loneliness. my phone lit up with their new photos, smiling next to someone else. they needed space, but I can't help but feel more like a ghost in my own life, surrounded by a sea of contacts. hundreds of acquaintances but nobody to call when the silence gets too loud, which reminds me… I should probably stop hoarding those funeral outfits like I’m expecting the worst but hoping…
honestly, the most stressful part of my month isn’t the rent due date. it’s waiting for my paycheck to hit while I scavenge my couch for coins to afford the five-dollar frozen pizza I swear is a gourmet meal at this point. literally, I can convince myself that I’m just “being frugal” while silently calculating how many cans of beans will get me through until payday, all while my friends rave about...