sitting in my tiny kitchen watching the neighbor bring home fancy takeout again while i have nothing but instant noodles, thinking about how everyone is planning vacations and i can’t even afford to buy new light bulbs, and it's just this never-ending spiral of feeling like i am not even on the same planet as them — so how do i keep watching all this when i can barely keep my plants alive
मतलब यार, घर पर सबको डर था कि सब कुछ खत्म हो जाएगा और एक छोटा सा ख्वाब सच नहीं होगा, लेकिन जब डॉक्टर ने कहा कि सब ठीक है तो literally ऐसा लगा जैसे बोझ हट गया हो, समझ ही नहीं आ रहा था। honestly, मुझे ऐसा लगा कि मैं फिर से जीने लगी हूँ, कोई समझता नहीं कितना मुश्किल था ये सब।
just had to decide between paying for a new pair of boots i absolutely want and the emergency dentist appointment i totally need, now im questioning if boots even matter, what am i even doing with my money. checking my account was like staring into a black hole, guess i can just walk on the cold ground with my broken shoes for a bit longer.
just had to decide between paying for a new pair of boots i absolutely want and the emergency dentist appointment i totally need, now im questioning if boots even matter, what am i even doing with my money. checking my account was like staring into a black hole, guess i can just walk on the cold ground with my broken shoes for a bit longer.
i accidentally threw away my favorite shirt and it still hurts, i keep imagining how i could have saved it, like somehow retrieved it from the trash before it was gone gone. it was just a shirt but it meant so much, you know?