you ever spend three years watching your asylum case sit in bureaucratic limbo like a contestant on a reality show that got canceled? it's like being a background extra in the life of others while i perfect the art of couch surfing and staring at walls, oh and not being allowed to WORK legally while people think getting a puppy is the real adulting challenge, like are you kidding me...
sitting in my tiny kitchen watching the neighbor bring home fancy takeout again while i have nothing but instant noodles, thinking about how everyone is planning vacations and i can’t even afford to buy new light bulbs, and it's just this never-ending spiral of feeling like i am not even on the same planet as them — so how do i keep watching all this when i can barely keep my plants alive
मतलब यार, घर पर सबको डर था कि सब कुछ खत्म हो जाएगा और एक छोटा सा ख्वाब सच नहीं होगा, लेकिन जब डॉक्टर ने कहा कि सब ठीक है तो literally ऐसा लगा जैसे बोझ हट गया हो, समझ ही नहीं आ रहा था। honestly, मुझे ऐसा लगा कि मैं फिर से जीने लगी हूँ, कोई समझता नहीं कितना मुश्किल था ये सब।
मतलब यार, घर पर सबको डर था कि सब कुछ खत्म हो जाएगा और एक छोटा सा ख्वाब सच नहीं होगा, लेकिन जब डॉक्टर ने कहा कि सब ठीक है तो literally ऐसा लगा जैसे बोझ हट गया हो, समझ ही नहीं आ रहा था। honestly, मुझे ऐसा लगा कि मैं फिर से जीने लगी हूँ, कोई समझता नहीं कितना मुश्किल था ये सब।
just had to decide between paying for a new pair of boots i absolutely want and the emergency dentist appointment i totally need, now im questioning if boots even matter, what am i even doing with my money. checking my account was like staring into a black hole, guess i can just walk on the cold ground with my broken shoes for a bit longer.