so i got my disability benefits denied because i posted a picture of me smiling at my mom's birthday last year like seriously they looked at that and decided my struggles didn't count just because i had a good moment. meanwhile, my neighbors are throwing parties every weekend and i'm stuck in my little studio with ramen, wondering if i even remember what happiness really feels like.
been thinking about how i spent two hours organizing my sock drawer yesterday - it felt oddly satisfying but then i just sat there staring at all these perfectly folded socks like what does it even matter - all the laundry is still piled up and i can’t figure out what to do with my life
sitting here staring at the wall wondering when things got so messy, like how many times can i wash the same dish before it just gets ignored, it feels like cleaning is a task and a trap, am i really even here or just going through the motions, just empty.
sitting here staring at the wall wondering when things got so messy, like how many times can i wash the same dish before it just gets ignored, it feels like cleaning is a task and a trap, am i really even here or just going through the motions, just empty.
found out my grandma died from a facebook post like she was some kind of monthly newsletter. guess that’s what happens when you miss family group texts and your life feels like a forgotten sitcom where everyone’s tuned out.