just found an old ticket stub from a concert that changed my life and realized i could barely afford a cheap meal now, felt the weight of all those moments fading while staring at my empty fridge and remembering how i used to dance like nobody was watching, now it feels like all i do is watch bills pile up.
i keep replaying my coworker's question about trying again like it was some kind of casual suggestion. like losing twins was just losing sneakers or something, and i hate that it made me feel like i should say something when all i really want is to feel less broken.
just overheard my neighbors talking about their big plans for a summer wedding and how they are getting this fancy venue for free from a family friend. meanwhile, i’m sitting in my tiny studio with a stack of takeout boxes and literally have no idea how i even pay my bills next month.
just overheard my neighbors talking about their big plans for a summer wedding and how they are getting this fancy venue for free from a family friend. meanwhile, i’m sitting in my tiny studio with a stack of takeout boxes and literally have no idea how i even pay my bills next month.
turning 40 alone in my tiny studio with takeout on the floor feels like a weird reality check. plans fell through, everyone cancelled, and honestly, the energy to feel disappointed just fizzled out.