just sat here scrolling through my contacts for the hundredth time trying to find someone to talk to but all i see is old friends i never texted and now it feels too weird to reach out - my partner comes home and i know i should just be happy but it just makes me feel more alone.
every time i pass the nursery i remember the plans and the little onesies but the emptiness feels heavier now, and scrolling through my contacts makes me realize that friend who always said they would be there but never was, and honestly, i could text but it feels pointless because the silence is already so loud.
sometimes i think about how i sold my car so my mom could have her chemo and now i ride buses for hours just wishing for a moment of silence without thinking of what i sacrificed but then again, what is a little comfort when it means extending her life for a bit longer.
sometimes i think about how i sold my car so my mom could have her chemo and now i ride buses for hours just wishing for a moment of silence without thinking of what i sacrificed but then again, what is a little comfort when it means extending her life for a bit longer.
if you are feeling overwhelmed right now, just know that you are not alone in this. remember, even the darkest nights will eventually give way to the dawn. #StayStrong #SelfCare